My mother passed away on December 10, 2009. I needed a way to help myself work through the grieving process. I knew that just writing an occasional entry in a paper journal wouldn't help me deal w/ the myriad of emotions. I've pledged to write in this blog every day for a year to chronicle what I hope will lead from the pain of mourning to the glory of remembrance.
Showing posts with label Pretending. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pretending. Show all posts
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Saturday, 17 April 2010 -- Day 118 (131)
I pretended Mom was alive for just a few minutes today. I spent the day at Ruthven-Ayreshire High School accompanying vocal and instrumental students for their contest. I was waiting to warm-up some of the vocal students so I sat talking w/ an older lady. We talked about retirement, and I mentioned how we all thought Dad would drive Mom crazy when he retired. I was really tempted just to keep going w/ the slight deception, but in a short time, I felt the need to clarify that Dad has been retired for almost 20 years, and that Mom passed away in December. Will I eventually start saying, "last December" then, "a year ago," and then, "14 months," and so on? Makes me think of how I first defined my daughters' age when they were infants: "4 months," a year," "14 months," and so on and so on. Symmetry?
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