Tuesday, 11 May 2010 -- Day 142 (155)

I was so proud watching Maddy in her final middle school concert, playing xylophone in the band and singing a solo in the 7th/8th grade choir and also performing w/ the Sixth Street Singers, a smaller ensemble. She played and sang w/ heart. I actually surprised myself at keeping it together while she was performing, and while I was accompanying. I only teared up a little when Maddy presented me w/ flowers and a gift from the director since this was my last middle school concert too. I think many of the tears I've shed in these months since Mom's passing have been out of regret, regret for words not spoken, feelings not shared. Tonight I felt no regrets. I've shared my love of music w/ Maddy, and we've been fortunate to perform together these last four years. I hope she looks upon these years w/ the same fondness that I do. See.......even now..........no tears......no regrets.