The last two nights I've dreamt that each of my grand nephews has been asleep, and not just asleep but hibernating on a storage shelf. My daughter Maddy is there w/ me, and we try to wake them, but they're sleeping sound. She picks them up and their arms and legs just flop like rag dolls, but eventually they wake up. And that's the end of the dream. Dreammoods.com says that seeing someone else sleeping in my dream means there's a situation that's alluding me. The fact that these children don't know that I'm watching them could mean that I have some knowledge or talent that I haven't yet realized. Seeing Maddy in my dreams means there's something in my life I'm trying to nurture. I guess it's quite obvious then that I know something, and I want it to grow, but I just haven't told myself what it is. I hate it when I do that.
While searching for the meanings of this dream, I found an interpretation about a parent dreaming that a grown child is young again. That reminded me that when I was in my early 20's, shortly after my divorce and living in Texas, Mom told me that when she dreamed about me, I was always a little girl. Dream Moods says this meant she was still seeing me as dependent and that she didn't feel needed and important. Why didn't I see that back then? I remember that she had asked me if I wanted her to come down to Austin to help me while I was going through the divorce. I told her that wasn't necessary b/c it would just be too hard to see her go back home again. Obviously I should've let her come down. She needed me to need her, and I blew her off. How could I have been so incredibly selfish? And what makes it worse is that I didn't even realize it until now, at a time when there's nothing I can do to make amends w/ her. Yes, I can promise to be a better mother, wife, sister, daughter to Dad, and friend, but that doesn't let Mom know that I needed her then just as much as I need her now. Maybe this is what has been alluding me.
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