I had to watch It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown. I bought the DVD several years ago so I can watch it multiple times leading up to Halloween. Linus is definitely my favorite. His innocence and unyielding faith inspire me.
Such an amazing night...full moon, crisp air, clear sky. I don't know which star is located just below the moon tonight, but it's so brilliant it makes the moon even brighter. What a beautiful relationship that something so small, rather than being outdone or out shown by the moon, enhances it. Makes me think that my infinitely small life life has something to contribute to the universe. Maybe that's the meaning of life, that we make all other life around us that much brighter and better just by being close. That was certainly the meaning of Mom's life.
I was also thinking tonight how the last time I wrote about being blissfully happy, the bottom fell out of my life. I'm tired of being afraid to be happy, worrying that the happiness is short-lived. I'd rather have fleeting moments of happiness to sustain me through the sad times than worry when the sad times will return. They will return, and I'll make it through. But it would be really nice if I could have seven-weeks of bliss and one day of sadness. The hope that this is possible keeps me going.
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