My mother passed away on December 10, 2009. I needed a way to help myself work through the grieving process. I knew that just writing an occasional entry in a paper journal wouldn't help me deal w/ the myriad of emotions. I've pledged to write in this blog every day for a year to chronicle what I hope will lead from the pain of mourning to the glory of remembrance.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Wednesday, 03 November 2010 -- Day 318 (331)
I've noticed lately than when people ask me, "How are you doing," I've been able to truthfully reply, "Fine, thanks." Many times I've used this same reply simply b/c I know the person asking really doesn't want to hear how I'm actually feeling, and I don't always want to go into the truth. It's easier just to say, "fine" and move on. When I was growing up, my aunt Adelyn would call our house several times a week. If I answered the phone, she'd ask me how I was doing, and I always said, "Fine." One time she commented on that I was always so cheerful. I think that was my first glimpse into how much our moods and attitudes can influence and affect others. I've never been much of a complainer so it never crossed my mind to say anything else, no matter how I was really feeling. But for now it's nice that I can say, "I'm doing fine," and mean it. In American Sign Language when some asks, "How are you?" If you want to say "Fine," you spread out your fingers and tap your thumb to your chest twice, as if to say, "My heart is whole."
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