My mother passed away on December 10, 2009. I needed a way to help myself work through the grieving process. I knew that just writing an occasional entry in a paper journal wouldn't help me deal w/ the myriad of emotions. I've pledged to write in this blog every day for a year to chronicle what I hope will lead from the pain of mourning to the glory of remembrance.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Wednesday, 25 August 2010 -- Day 248 (261)
I hate not being able to sleep. I don't know how Ron used to function by only being able to sleep for four hours at a time. I thought getting out my feelings in this blog would keep me from bottling everything up. You know, the whole "sleep like the dead." Those who have a clear conscience have no problem sleeping. Well, I think this blog has been backfiring on me. I had an epiphany the other night that this blog make actual be the reason for my sucky sleep patterns. I usually write just before going to bed, right after I churn up all my feelings. It's no wonder I can't fall asleep. My head and heart are still running wild. Yesterday, I decided to test this hypothesis by writing early so I could get to bed earlier. Last night I slept wonderfully. So, I'm going to try this again tonight. Write. Do something less taxing on my emotions. Go to bed.
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