Friday, 06 August 2010 -- Day 229 (242)

I'm finding that it's getting easier to mention Mom's passing in passing, but I still can't go into much personal detail about our relationship when talking face-to-face. For example, I've shared w/ my fast track students that my mom passed away last December, but I can't go beyond that. For example, in class we talk about nonverbal communication, in general, and haptics (touch), in specific. We talk about the importance of the location, duration, and intensity of the touch as well as touch deprivation. Touch and lack of touch indicates much about a relationship. In past semesters and years, I shared w/ my students how I always used to sit on my mom's lap up until the point that I became a mother myself. Even as a woman in my late 20's, I enjoyed sitting on Mom's lap despite having 5 inches and 30 pounds on her. Anyway, I'm still not at a point where I can talk about this. I'm guessing that since just five months ago I wasn't even able to tell people she had passed away w/o tearing up, eventually I'll get to the point where I can share more of the stories about our relationship w/o that catch in my throat.