My mother passed away on December 10, 2009. I needed a way to help myself work through the grieving process. I knew that just writing an occasional entry in a paper journal wouldn't help me deal w/ the myriad of emotions. I've pledged to write in this blog every day for a year to chronicle what I hope will lead from the pain of mourning to the glory of remembrance.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Saturday, 17 April 2010 -- Day 118 (131)
I pretended Mom was alive for just a few minutes today. I spent the day at Ruthven-Ayreshire High School accompanying vocal and instrumental students for their contest. I was waiting to warm-up some of the vocal students so I sat talking w/ an older lady. We talked about retirement, and I mentioned how we all thought Dad would drive Mom crazy when he retired. I was really tempted just to keep going w/ the slight deception, but in a short time, I felt the need to clarify that Dad has been retired for almost 20 years, and that Mom passed away in December. Will I eventually start saying, "last December" then, "a year ago," and then, "14 months," and so on? Makes me think of how I first defined my daughters' age when they were infants: "4 months," a year," "14 months," and so on and so on. Symmetry?
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Your mom is alive - in you! Keep her alive as long as you can.
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