Friday, 10 September 2010 -- Day 264 (277)

I'm not as motivated to blog, and I'm not sure why.  It could be that I've said all I need to say about dealing w/ Mom's death.  I doubt it.  It could be that I'm too distracted in dealing w/ Mackenzie's situation.  Possibly, but she and I are communicating better.  It could be that all the work we're doing on our house plus teaching five, maxed-out classes, attending volleyball games, board meetings, etc., etc., etc., has me exhausted by the end of the day.  Very likely, but it's still not an excuse.  It could be that Grandma Ruth is very near death, and being on death watch brings back too many recent memories.  Absolutely.  I have a similar, sinking feeling in my stomach each time the phone rings.  Doug said something rather odd today. In planning out his schedule for next week, he said he should probably account for taking time off to go to Grandma's funeral.  It's strange to fit-in a funeral and plan for it just as one would plan for an upcoming doctor's appointment.  It's really not that odd, I guess, since she has her funeral all planned out, including hymns, scripture, and songs she wants Kenzie and Maddy to sing.  That's all too familiar as well.