One of my favorite scenes from the movie, A League of Their Own, comes when Dottie Hinson, played by Geena Davis, leaves the women's baseball team b/c her husband has returned from WW II. Coach Jimmy Dugan, played by Tom Hanks, tells her that she's the best player in the league and that she'll regret leaving the game. She responds by saying, "It just got too hard." To which he counters, "If it was easy, everyone would do it." I guess life has just gotten too hard lately, and I just want to quit. No, suicide hasn't entered the picture. I just feel sometimes that if my life were ever easy, it would be b/c I'd be dead. For fear of anyone asking me if I'd like some cheese w/ my whine, I'm just going to have a small pity party right now. My mother is dead. My daughter has Crohn's Disease. My other daughter is home sick today w/ a bad cold. My students are extremely crabby as finals approach. My final concert w/ the middle school choirs is a week from tonight, and I haven't worked up the music. Mother's Day is coming up this weekend, and my mother is dead. Life is hard.
Dottie ends up returning to play in the championship game, and I guess Coach Dugan's advice applies to me too. If living was easy, everyone would do it. Most people don't really live. We just go from one day and event and activity to another. We have lots of moments in our lives, but we rarely live every moment. I would estimate that there are millions of people feeling exactly as I do right now: life is just too hard, and what's the point of it all. I guess I'm not in a league of my own after all.
I know things have been rough for you lately. If nothing else, comfort yourself with thoughts of Dan mincing across the stage. I don't know about you, but that's enough to keep me going. I'm really looking forward to this play...what's drama without all the drama? :)
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