I was determined when I awoke this morning, this first day of Spring, that I was going to find and focus on life. I found it in the most precious place by holding a baby, making her giggle, feeding her and rocking her to sleep. This is life in its most pure state. Holding baby Abby I remembered how quickly this beginning stage of life passes, and that reminded me why life is so important. These last few days I've struggled again w/ the futility of life b/c of the inevitability of death. Death waits for us all, the mighty equalizer, and that pisses me off. But I realized in the moment of holding Abby I had been focusing too much on the big picture....you know the one, it starts w/ birth and ends w/ death. Once Abby helped me realize that all the little pictures are more important, I began to see all kinds of life re-emerging. I have tulips and hyacinths busting through. Some of the trees are budding, and daily the snow loses its battle w/ the sun. I know this b/c the snowmobile that belongs to the boy down the street sits on a smaller slice of snow each time I walk by.
I found what I was looking for....in a baby, a bud, and a battle just waiting to spring to life.
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